"I would not exchange the laughter of my heart for the fortunes of the multitudes; nor would I be content with converting my tears, invited by my agonized self, into calm. It is my fervent hope that my whole life on this earth will ever be tears and laughter".
Have been feeling so much better since writing that last post. I've always had the hardest time with calming my mind in savasana; the whole "acknowledge each thought and let it pass, as a cloud," kinda thing. It's just rarely worked for me. Well, I acknowledged many of my difficult thoughts in that last post, and they have passed... Just like those clouds.
Many thanks to everyone who commented. I was so surprised and humbled by the reflectiveness, honesty, and compassion that came though. :)